this is more like talking to myself while people stare
Being in love is the scariest thing. You don’t ever completely understand what it is or why it makes you feel the way you do. The sensations are so complex and unknown. Love can completely break your being, crush your spine into little pieces, and ironically have you feeling the worst. Love can infuriate and make your blood boil. Love can pursue all these simulations that trigger the the dark side of the mind. Yet; love can be so beautiful. One is completely drawn to a person and they invade your life. You know everything about them; their simile, the way they laugh, the texture of their hair , the smallest details on their face, their insecurities and strengths. Absolutely everything. Love is that feeling you get when you can just look at each other and know this is where you’re supposed to be. It’s when you understand all the generic statements and songs that you once thought were frivolous. You think about them all the time; even when you aren’t aware of it. Even if the person has hurt you, you still want those negative feelings towards them to wear out. Love is when you feel whole; your entire being and purpose is present when you are with them. It’s when the single thought of them loving someone else frightens you. Then, when they love you back, nothing else is superior. The notion that such a special and unique human being has their love dedicated to you makes you feel uncertain. You don’t understand why they picked you and you start to wonder if you’re even worthy of it. That’s when it gets scary; that’s when it gets perplexing. But you go along with it because you realize luck is on your side.
The truth is, love can never be described. You can only feel it. I’ve felt it, and I can’t remember when exactly I ever thought “I’m in love with this person”, it just happened and it never went away. I can sit here and try to break it down, analyze the elements and dissect the principle, but I’ll never know the answer as to what exactly love is. Their most likely is a scientific explanation to it but you can’t help to wonder if there is more to it. All I know is, I have felt every emotion possible through love, and I am utterly in love with it. I love you.